What I Wish I Would've Known (Before Entering Porn) Panel at AVN 2020

This, like she said, I wish all the block. I can then do an executive director of free speech coalition. If you are not familiar with FSC, one, we sponsored this panel. But two, FSC is the trade association for the adult industry. So our members are basically anyone who does business in the industry, and our 30-year history has been to make sure we have an adult industry and protecting your right to continue to work in it. This panel is part of our Inspire program, started by Lotus last year, and that we're really going to build out this year. Inspire is an educational program really aimed at new performers, perspective to talent, anyone thinking about or just who had just joined the adult industry to really help them protect themselves in the state. So they know what to expect. They can protect their bodies because doing sex work is different than just having a lot of sex so that they can protect their identities so that they can protect themselves as a business. And I am super excited for all of this amazing talent that is going to talk just about what they wish you would have known when they first joined the industry. And with that, I would love to introduce our moderator, Ms. Casey Calvert. She's an ADN award-win of herself. She's also a performer, a very decorated director, and producer, so here is Casey Calvert. Hi, everyone. So I am incredibly honored to be here today to represent the industry as a performer, as a director, to represent a free speech. So I love, and so grateful for all the sports that they do. I want to just bring up that I have been in the business since 2012. I want to talk about the years and when we all started because I find it interesting how long I've all been in the business and the decades of experience, not to call you, but as old as we have on the stage today. And also, I think, as we talk about this topic, the business has changed so much in the past year or the past five years, the past 10 years that the information that we're going to bring to this panel is impacted regarding the year that we started. So if you guys don't mind going down the line, introduce yourselves, include what year you started doing sex work. Go ahead, Justin. My name is Jessica Drake. I am an exclusive wikipedia actress, performer, bronzer, director. I am also a certified sex educator. I'm a resident of the educator for wikipedia and social care as well. I've been wikipedia for a number of years, and I've been in business for 20 years now. Good to know one about the world. What's your name for the university? My name is Anna Fox. I have been performing an adult in Shea since 2011. I think it's the first time I saw something on camera. Fleshlight girl. I am a playboy plus model. I produce on my only fans. I'm just a well-rounded adult person. Hi, I'm Cronley. I am a size version of the girls. Up here, I have been performing on camera for 15 years and I've been in the industry since 2016. I'm a content producer, camera model, and performer as well. Hello, I'm Wolf Hudson. I've been performing since 2006. I've performed in all genres, gay, straight, by fans, you name it. And I currently, not just perform, but I also produce my own content on Porto. Thanks guys, so really quick so that we have all kinds of good time for the meaty stuff of this piano. How did you get into the business? Like two sentences or less? Really? You can do that. Go for it. Hi, and from Texas, was going to college, stripping was making one two sentences. This is all right. OK, perfect. I was introduced to some people that were in the industry while I was still in Texas. They were like, oh, you should come and try it. I said, oh, no, I'm taking it ever. And here we are today. Listen up, I have shitty boyfriend. He was really horny when I thought like 20 times a day, but I didn't even know how to suck dick. So I figured he got offered to do porn. Maybe I should take off or to learn him. And I'm single now, so here I am. So I was very young when I wanted to do porn. I didn't know what porn was. But I figured the guys that would go behind the little curtains and the video stores were always coming out happy. So I wanted to do whatever that was. And I am still. I actually started out from a car accident and I kind of looked me in a wheelchair to kind of figure out what I was going to do from there that I lost my job in my apartment. And I started camping. I dabbled in it before, and I just took it into like a full-time gig and here I am today. I used to be a bookkeeper before this. It was working for a fun distributor. And I got laid off. They went through a merger. And I was like, that's one of the independent to my own thing. I was looking through prexels and it's not the adult section. And there was an ad for a game band. I applied as I come in. I did it. It worked. I'm sorry, but it was a shame. I'm sorry. One of the things I love about this business is that we can all have these incredibly unique origin and stories. But here we are. We're all here. We just all came here in our very own, very individual ways. So shall we get into the question of the panel? Since the title of this panel is a question, I figured I'd ask you guys what do you wish you knew when you got it to horn? And from now on, I just want you guys to have a conversation. You don't need to go down the line and be far from out just to talk. Just when you want to say something, turn on your microphone and say something. I think it's not going to say something. Oh, sir. So first thing, pick the right name. Because that should be the stick with you forever. And a lot of girls are like, I'm going to do this. If you can't answer to that for the rest of your life, you have to get it by the wrong name. I have a brain storm. Do you guys, does anybody in this room, do you care? If I write down their hand, like they're really, really short answers and tweet this out later and tag people, is everybody good with that? OK, I'm going to do that then. How do you feel about this? How do you feel about it? Oh, no. It's really cool. I'll just say what I wish I knew when I started was that I guess when I started, I thought that I would learn how to suck dick, which I did learn. But what I really didn't know is that I would gain a lot of power and myself. I gave a lot of confidence, which I don't know if I was ready for all the power to come hit me at once. You have the power to do what you want, when you want, where you want for home, what you want, until people fuck off or fuck on. You've got a lot of power. And as you grow in industry, it builds. And the longer you're here, the more you have a responsibility to be a good example for other people to come up. Because people are looking at each other when I came and it started. I looked at other emails and like what they were doing, especially for the events like XBZ, VN, whatever. Like how are they dressing? What do they do? Like there's a lot of ideals that people put on that build industry like, oh, there's sluts. They fucking game betting all day. They fucking stuff big going Tuesday. But it's like a lot more than that. So I had to be a responsible person for my body, myself, which I didn't. I was ready for the money and the payment net, but I didn't think I was ready to grow up. So it taught me how to be a better woman, a better partner, a better business person. And those are the things that people don't put with adults because they think of it as a immature or like, you know, blase a law, like people are just fucking around and going through as a titties. But it's much, much more than that. So I grew up a lot and I care a lot more. I think more than I ever expected myself to and I came into my self more than I ever thought. Like I never thought that I would be proud of myself so much as I am now an adult. Like I never thought that I could be a champion of the Asian and the sister to people like I am now and that don't interest me on that. So that's what I learned this. And I was like, you know what I'm saying? You know what I'm saying? Yeah, don't cry, don't cry. I wish I had known my worth when I got in. The industry is business. It's a professional industry. And a lot of the times we go into it and we take things very personally. And you have to understand it is business. And if you don't do the business right or at least to your own worth, it can be personal. And you end up regretting some of the choices that you do and some of them stays with you for a long time and there's lots of repercussions. And I remember I was so eager to want to please and want to do things. And that would list. It's like wanting to do this and do this and do that. You'll be so much bigger. And I wasn't necessarily comfortable, but I didn't know. And I felt like, well, this is what I have to do to really stuff my stuff and put myself out there. And I looked back on it and I'm like, no, I didn't have to do that. And some of it to this day, I looked back and really wished I had taken my time and just kind of trusted my intuition. And my intuition was speaking really loud. I was like, I don't know what I'm talking about because I don't know this industry. And I think it's really important because, you know, because of the business, it's supposed to be a mutual thing where one side wants one thing, it's the other thing. And you try to find the middle ground. The other side being director producer, they want to get the most out of you. But if you don't know your worth, you don't know what you are comfortable with. Then that could really set up that price. It's important to know your worth and know that you don't have to do certain things. And if you do do the things, you are going to be so much more in control and you're going to have a much better experience so that if you want to push further, you can't but it's under your terms. I like to also add on to that. But before I bring up my topic, because I really do think that knowing and worth and taking the shoots that you want to actually shoot is like so important. And then there's so many times where you'll get offered a shoot and somebody will be like, oh, well, I want to take this shoot just because they're offering it to me not because I necessarily want to do it. And I feel like chemistry is the biggest key to selling like a good scene. And to take the liberty to be like, oh, I'm not necessarily comfortable with working with this type of performer for whatever reasons, that's your body and that's your decision to make. And I feel like that's really important. And I always try to pick who I work with because I want the scene to be the best and not just take whatever is growing at me just because I think it's going to make the producer happy. I definitely agree with that a lot. I feel like there's so many things that we can talk about. What I wish I would have known. There's so many different things. And I was like, rock my brain on this. But the one that was most prominent was content triggets. I feel like there's so many performers that are doing content trades now, especially like brand new performers. I mean, I feel like that's the word talking to you right now. And one of the biggest things on that is there's not a lot of contracts, there's not a lot of discussion about what goes into that. And I feel like one of the most important things is to know who you're working with, where it's getting posted, and to know what you can do to help protect yourself. Which by that I mean, there's so many different ways. I feel like there's so many people that do content trades. Like you keep it. You keep a copy, I keep a copy. And we're going to go and split our ways. And we're both going to be okay with where we post it. And that's not always necessarily the case. The first time I ever did a double needle, one of the male performers I'm posting on point of, well, I sell it on a subscription site. So it's like, there's no contract protecting me from that. The whole, yeah, after I said something about it, like, hey, please don't do that. I can split it up into three different previews. And it's like, you can still find it. It's part one, we're two, part three. And it's completely ridiculous. Especially because it's my hotel, my photographer, I organized it. It was one of the decks and it's, you know, and I wasn't wanting to go home in my house. So I mean, so there's way to protect yourself from doing that. You can offer trade for trade shoots. So like, I could do a trade with Wolf and then we'll do another scene where he keeps a copy of it. You know, he solely keeps a copy of his scene if you're not able to pay it outright. And which I think is the most beneficial way because that way, you know, models are more, are monetarily incentivized to actually shove up to the super scenes. And that way you own exclusive rights to that and make sure to be your contracts and to do model agreements and to also have consent on camera before and after. I feel like that's like one of the most important things that you can do. Also to add on that, you could always set up your phone to not record for the production but to record as an insurance for yourself so that way you're not violating somebody's personal boundaries. And I feel like that's one of the most important things that I wish I would have known before I joined the industry. So I talk about this for a really long time because I have been around a lot, right? And the hindsight is always 2020 and there are some of the things that I do wish I would have known. At the same time for me and in this industry it's definitely been a process. I got a lot of growth. One of the first things that I wish I would have known and this is pre-wicked so before I signed a contract with Wicked, I wouldn't have been more knowledgeable of the things that I was signing when I was working for other people. I would have taken a closer look at these like percentages of royalty and who was getting what and why. I also would have wanted to understand a little bit better that certain people were working for me and not the opposite. So if I would tell, one thing that I would offer to any performer or any performer, please read everything before you sign and understand exactly what it is. Understand the rights that you are giving away by signing and I think that that understanding will definitely help with all performers being more comfortable, demand in a rate that they think is worth whatever it is that they're doing. Understanding how many times that scene or content will be used from a moment forward. I think that's really important. The other thing that I'd love to speak to and this is probably the biggest thing. Looking back on my entire career and even thinking about the direction that it's taking me now and the things that I'm doing in the future, the biggest thing that I wish I would have known back then was that it wasn't doing the industry a massive service for me to feel as if I was fighting the stigma that people hold in the adult industry by only maintaining a very polished veneer. And let me tell you what I've been like that. I experienced a consent violation on a set as a young performer. I'm not super young, I actually came in at like 25, I think. So I had that going for me at least. But I experienced this violation on a set that was not a wicked set. It was when I was independent before I signed a contract and the reason that I didn't do anything about that was because there are generations. Victim labor, of course, you know, a lawyer important what you expect. And the other thing is, yeah, I was afraid of not being hired, again, of course. But I was also afraid that if I spoke out and was really vocal about it, that it would make the adult industry look bad. And now in retrospect, we have to understand that I lived experiences and I was sharing the things super vocal about them. Those are the only, these are the only ways that things are going to change in this business. So at that point, I think it was more of a gradual realization. It doesn't always have to be a perfect interview every time and everything is not always perfect. And when there is a problem, we have to get it out and we have to talk about it because that's the only way that it's going to change. Do any of you guys want to add any other things that you wish you would have known before I move into some other questions? I'm still working in that. And I mean, I've been here for years and it's like, it changes so often and it's like what I can say now and we have different platforms and we can just talk, we can speak our stuff and it doesn't have to be, it just has to be sometimes put out in the world. I feel like that can also be a double edged sword as well, uncertain aspects to you. You have to really kind of know what you're doing because like you're saying there's a lot of like, I put the things out there and in my own experience, I was like, well, this is what it's, you know, this is what's right, this is my only option of, you know, I'm on sharing my experience because I feel violated. And I feel like it's certain instances that I've witnessed people have done it and kind of normal malicious manages because they don't like somebody and that kind of backfires on them, especially when there are things like reporting so, you know, set and there's, you know, sign waivers and things like that, that nature. One thing that I wasn't ready for is like a division in the middle industry because it's, when I started, I heard like, this is sex workers, this is sex workers. So anyone who has sex, we are all in the same group but it's very divided. Like, for instance, I've only had sex with you and you and even like working with each other and like it has to be labeled particularly each sex actor. I thought that I could just fuck humans. Like, I never before thought and the title myself as gay, straight, binary, black, whatever the fuck, you know, I just have sex. So I thought that we were just sexual beings but they definitely categorize as in place that it's more beneficial if you just have sex according to your title, which isn't what my human body wants to do on half sex if anyone that wants to have sex with me. And I hadn't think that there would be somewhat of a punishment if I went outside of those boundaries. So that's one thing for me. That was just kind of like disappointing in the way that the industry doesn't like respect that. Like, biocenes are not true by. Biocenes would be me of both fucking and Carlin and then like, why not? This is, this is right here is biocene but they'll put me with a girl that's scoring more makeup than me and call us gay and I'm like, no, you know, so it's like, the title is in things and what we do just don't match. And that thing is like a labeling inform. It's just kind of like an off-putting thing. And to touch on what you guys were talking about earlier is like there are platforms, like it feels like they have a lot of voice to speak on line than we do to our agents. And in my opinion, that's just like, I feel like I get a quicker response if I go on Twitter, but I'm talking then talking with the people that I hired to work for me to fix these things. Kind of touching on that. I didn't know there was such a segregation in the industry and I came in doing gay and straight. I didn't know there was such intense reaction so that you can't do that. A woman can have sex with a man and a woman. Totally fine. I came in and I was, because the anticlimbs, I'm here to plague every single performer with HIV. I don't have HIV, but that was the reaction. I'm just here to work, I'm here to get paid. Do a good job. And I've often thought about this. Like if I had known that this would be such a political issue, would I have dropped into the industry if I had been a little bit more prepared? How would I navigate it through that head? Would I've just decided to stick with straight or stick with gay? I thought about that, but now that I've been in it, I've tried to navigate it the best way that I can, but there was never a loop until it's light, faced a lot of backlash, even in the most pivotal moments of when someone in the industry became a true positive and immediately people looked at me. They're like, well, are you okay? Are you the one? There was such a reaction. Being in martial science, agents with other performers do not work with wolf. He's on a six-month quarantine, and he doesn't shoot them anymore with him. And I'm like, I'm not a bad guy. That was a very, very hard. And there's still a little bit of bitterness about it, but I don't deal with it as much because it's a matter of fact. It's kind of the business we didn't, it shouldn't be. And I feel like now things are changing a little bit more and performers are open about it, but coming into it, I didn't know it could be so cool and think it would be such a bad thing because we're all being judged by everyone. People are constantly saying women are being exploited. They're being abused. You guys are degenerates. I didn't think that there would be any infighting within the industry, even with racism. There's so much blame in racism. I'm like, are you kidding me? Like, what's going on? So I don't know. But all of it is in the air. All of it is in the air. Yeah, so I wish I had known. Oh, there's no filter, really, for like helping the industry put things out there and we're just meant to take it and perform with a thickener mouth or ass or whatever holy cheese. So it's kind of hard to have all these things tossed at you and then sit there and have friends that you can't work with because of whatever the industry decides is appropriate at the time and just deal with it on your own. So that kind of sucks, but it's like thankful for friends and pineapple support or whoever to help us with those things. But there's a lot of things that are really hard and people forget that we're human and have to deal with all these issues and they come perform and it's a lot. It's a lot of work that we deal with and people just credit us a lot. A lot of times I hear people tell me like, oh, why don't you, you're a real model. What the fuck kind of model am I? If I'm not really a model, I'm not going to be a model. Yeah, the hardest product of all. Body is like, what do you mean? I'm definitely a real model. Yeah. They're changing the topic a little bit with something that we haven't really brought up yet is learn how to be smart with money. Oh. Your trust? No, yes, specifically. Yeah. Just a lot of us come into the business and suddenly we're getting paid thousands of dollars a week on the day of the job and it's important to learn that money doesn't last forever and that the money you make in your first three months in the business doesn't last forever. And the jobs that you get right away don't last forever. And you have to learn what a savings account is and how to pay your taxes and how to be a business person. I go with, and that gives you freedom to have sex with whoever you want. Because if I don't have to take a job for money and I can do it for myself or somebody else, I have the freedom. Controlling your money gives you freedom to do whatever you want, not just important in life. And if we treat it like a business, we'll make it into a business. All right, tell me a question. What was the hardest moment that you've experienced and how could you overcome it? First of all, your professional life. How did you overcome it? Well, you should go first since we talked about it. The hardest decision I did was not changing my name to do all genres. And it may not seem like a big deal, but it was. Because at the time, if the milk performer wanted to do gay or straight porn, you had to go by different names. You couldn't do both. You didn't want to be seen or they didn't want to find out and have the repercussions of being blacklisted. And I just wanted to be posted on like, why can't I just do everything and make money and have a good time? And then coming to terms with that and just saying, you know what? I'm going to keep my same name. I'm going to go out there and put myself as bisexual and fuck it if you don't want it. That was really hard because on the one hand, it was very liberating. I got to really put myself out there and I got so much respect for the people in the other hand, I know with the backlash. And I've missed out on many opportunities because of it. There have been plenty of male performers who have gone on to switch from gay to straight and have had less just careers. They've won plenty of awards and worked with some of the top performers, but they stopped getting gay. So that was okay. For me being as open as it was, it just, it didn't matter what I did, how professional I was, how nice it was. That was still like a, you know, like a bad stain on me. But I don't regret doing it because from the bad stuff that I've experienced, I've gotten so many other great opportunities and met so many people who are flowerable over the world. It's opened up a lot of doors for me that I probably wouldn't have gotten if I had just stuck with Juan Dramma. Or I would have just kept two different names. But that was really hard and I struggled with it, but once I did it, I was very proud of it and I took the punches and I'm still here after 14 years and I'm still doing it and it's only gotten better. Well, like one of the hardest things that I've had to overcome in the beginning and the street was getting violated on set and then having my scene, the very next day canceled because of it. And it was something that I just didn't know how to deal with and what happened was as I performed and I worked my ass off all day. I did reverse powder on five minutes, but then five minutes to let us for like 17 minutes. They wanted me to transition at 20 and it was because of that that they decided to cancel my scene the next day which was the morning of very important awards that I went and that was nominated for multiple awards. And I left feeling really burned. I had a, I was supposed to feature dance that night. I was doing annual the next day obviously. So I didn't eat and I just didn't know how to deal with it. So one of the hardest things was airing out on Twitter and deciding, oh, this is what I'm gonna do and even if I do have to face the backlash of not getting booked again or by performers looking at me as the one that airs out their problems on Twitter, I was like, this is what I have to do and so I did it and I actually got a really good response for him, a lot of the performers in the industry and they were right there with me. And they gave me up at my DMs and they shared their stories as well. And to be honest, I contacted attorneys because of it because I was left without money and it was, I was just felt extremely violated. And the attorneys that contacted me actually offered to pay me money for some of my news instead of help me with. So it went even further, it went even further down. I was like, there's nothing I can do about this and you know, I just kind of felt really merge about it. At least I have a satisfaction of airing this out on social media. But I did, I felt like I did overcome it the next day when I won solo performer of the year in the transgender erotic awards. Okay, this is going to sound a little bit like, but like, not getting support from your fellow performers and having that hurt your feelings and having it where it makes you feel like you're alone, but really, it's just that group of people. That's that. But you can have the people that are supportive and always there for you, but it's just finding the right people and not expecting those people to change your mind and your attitude about everybody around you. For me, I think the hardest thing in the industry for me to overcome was probably the best thing. At the same time was my race. Being black in the industry is definitely hard. I didn't expect to come out and be titled in something like beautiful pre-team girl, flux, black ass bitch, and a fox. I was like, God damn, so aggressive. You know, you're like, really? So, I mean, for me, definitely my race was the hardest thing for me to overcome in the industry because it was my one thing that stood apart and put me aside from everybody else and put me, you know, gave me respect, but also it was hard to see the titles and the movies and feel like I was just like that side performer, like the last spot that I decided to fill. And they're like, okay, cool. We've got a movie for the girls and we're just need one more black one to be on the braces. So, you know, I had a hard time trying to feel like I wasn't a token in every fucking corner that I did because I'm okay being a ton of whores. It's a lot dirty sloppy, whatever the fuck I'm a floor, but for some reason, every time they touch on my face, I never saw myself as like specifically black. I just thought I was a human fucking other humans. And I never looked at any other person as like, oh, I'm a fucking gay dude or a baby W. I never looked at anybody else as whatever industry decided to title it for me. Every single title that I did was just like awarding but just hardening at the same time. So, I struggled with that this whole time and I'm still struggling with it, but luckily I have a lot of people and companies that don't treat me that way and just have me be a performer as I fell of performers. And the hardest thing for me to overcome was my position of privilege, which I didn't realize I have as a new performer. I came in as a teen who was relatively petite and a speedboat girl from the very beginning and I used to walk around like such an asshole. And I didn't realize I was doing it. I was just obnoxious to people and I thought I was God's gift to porn and I wasn't, I am not. And it's taken all of these years to learn that I can do things like this. I can do outreach, I can do community outreach, I can help new girls. I can use my position of privilege in the industry for good rather than to be a dick. What was the best piece of advice someone gave you when you got it? What do you remember? I was right there at this time. Yeah, I'm sure you got this. This is an easy one. The best piece of advice or information that someone gave me as I was getting into the industry when I hadn't even gotten it in yet was this. No matter what you do or accomplish throughout your whole entire life, this will always be a part of who you are and it will always impact the way people think about you. I was fortunate enough to be given that advice before us on camera. Not everybody gets that speech. It is five hearted grades piece of advice that I got and it is a piece of advice that I offer anybody that's constantly doing anything in this industry. For me, the first piece of advice that I got that stuck to me was to treat everybody that you work with as if they're the most exciting person that you ever fucking fucks. They're a Turkish delight. And if they're not, don't do it. So if you don't think you're going to have that reaction, just don't do it. And that really stuck to me because I'm a Scorpio. I don't know if you guys know what that means. I'm so proud of you. I love how I was saying what I got. So I already knew I was down the clock. I just wanted to make sure. But if I didn't, it wasn't like an equally engaging at that I didn't do it. So that was my one piece of advice that stuck with me. Love your body because you only have one seriously. We sometimes treat it for almost for granted and we just don't imagine that this is going to ever change, but it does. And it can. And you have to keep it the self-love that deserves every day. Go ahead. It was more a piece of knowledge than advice was that there is a community of performers out here in Vegas and LA. I like many of other performers that have ventured how much food was. I was out from Miami originally. So I came out here and bring my family or anybody like that. I gained a circle of friends. And I feel like that was like the most important things people reaching out to me to kind of generate a community. Mine is a little bit more lighthearted. A director once told me I was a little bit uneasy about what to do in a certain scene. He told me, it's just sex like recognize what is respect what you're doing. Have a good time because if you're not having a good time, the person watching is not going to have a good time. So understand first and foremost, what you're doing is entertaining and it's very pivotal. It doesn't matter where you are. In a bedroom, you can be in a beach and a mansion doesn't matter. Your focus is to sex and make sure that you're fully committed and you're in the moment and recognize that we'll not only meet you but such a better performer, but it'll be a much better representation of the industry. It brings about something beautiful and something positive. And for the most part, I feel like it does come across. Actually not for the most part, I think it does come across. I think people can see when it's genuine and when it's not. And I've made very conscious efforts to always be in the moments, to perform with people that I actually tried to do and just give it my all and not in the abstract of that. I don't worry about the cameras. I don't worry about the lights and all that stuff. That's almost irrelevant. If I'm not there, then what's the point? So. Different from the thing to you just said, tomorrow is my first performance. And what are you going to tell me? Silicone is your friend. Don't be afraid to spit on chemicals. It's OK. Make sure you bring your body set and shoes. Jolene is your friend as well. First point is your friends. Epsom, math, before and after. Just to get comfortable. It relaxes your muscles. You're just more organic. You're winning it. Do it. The liquid inside the animal is not to be put inside your house. I think everybody needs to treat that. If someone would have told me that before my first performance era, eventually, Chanel Preston came along and told me what to do with my stuff. And I remember it so distinctly that I remember who it was. But no one told me that the douche liquid is not to go inside your vagina and the animal liquid is to not go inside your bottle. No one told me. He was saying, please, everyone take this information far and wide. It's better than telling friends. If you were doing your first scene tomorrow, I would say you are in a complete control. You are the boss of your body. You are the person who calls the shots about what it is you're going to do. And if something isn't pleasureing you, seek out pleasure. One of the first things. I realized when I was independent before I signed a contract with Wicked as a new performer, I quickly realized that the sex that we were shooting was almost mechanical. In that, it was very formulae, right? So it's like kissing or a position, position, position, pop, pop. And maybe some annoying me at the eye, I don't know. And then the pop shot and then the pop shot sort of signified me into the scene. But I didn't get in line. And I was like, hey, what about me? And I was going to masturbate after scenes because I wasn't getting off. And once this finally dawned on me, I was like, what about my foot? So enjoy it. Have fun. Enjoy your first scene. You actually kind of took what I was going to say. So hygiene, practice, food, hygiene. It doesn't matter what you're into in your personal life. That does not translate when you go on set. It's just brush your teeth, use wipes, courtesy wipes you're right before seeing this. Really try to practice good hygiene. Yeah. Cleaning fingernails. Oh, sorry. I was just going to say clean fingernails. It's a thing of mine. I also want to add, I wish this is a yeast infection. These are the symptoms of a yeast infection. This is BV. These are the symptoms of BV. These things are OK to happen. They will happen to you. And this is how you take care of them. This is a UTI. This is a UTI. It's also OK. But you need to go to the doctor and get medicines to feel better. Yeah. Do I have a TOTU 15 or a TOTU 3? Then we're done.